LONELY

It's christmas eve :')

I've no idea why am i so sad.

Wish everything was just a dream. It's not real.

I'm so frigging stress. I'm not even happy at all.

SIGH

Someday I'll disappear

leaving no traces behind..

But may be some tears,

some enchanting memories

and my absence in their life..

Let me cherish

these moments now

'cause may be tomorrow

I would be dead..

today my post going to be in Chinese..
今天心情很不好... 我从新加坡回来他就和我分手了...
我们在一起都要两年了... 他很狠心... 我们分了很多次可是我还是要回他...
可是这次应该是没有可能再回一起了... 咳~ 我真的很没用...
怎样都放不下他... 我很烦耶~ 救命~

the real one.

The way a man truly feels about you is revealed when EVERYONE is watching..not in private.

never find someone like you, bye.

I just broke up with someone and the last thing he said to me was:

You will never ever find anyone like me again in your life!

I'm thinking, "I should hope not! If I do not want you, why would I want someone like you.

that's for sure.

You will regret losing me.

AFTER ENGAGEMENT:

HE: I waited so long for this.

SHE: Do U want me to leave?

HE: No. never!

SHE: Do U love me?

HE: Yes I did, I'm doing & I'll do.

SHE: Did you ever cheat me?

HE: I would rather die than do it.

SHE: Will you kiss me?

HE: Surely, it's my pleasure.

SHE: Will you hurt me?

HE: No way, I'm not such a kind of person.

SHE: Can I trust you?

HE: Yes.

SHE: Oh, Darling!

To know AFTER WEDDING:

>Read from bottom to top<

do it by myself.

I deserve to know the truth, and since you won't tell me yourself, I have to find it out for myself.

WHAT IF?

Confusions in life:

Why is the word ABBREVIATION too long?

If a TURTLE loses his shell, is it Naked or Homeless?

If OLIVE OIL comes from Olive, Where does Baby Oil come from?

If Con is opposite is Pro, What is opposite of Progress?

Why do we wash bath towels? Aren't we clean after we use them?

Wife: whenever we keep the money in the bags our son steals it,

I don’t know what to do….

Husband: keep it in his books. I know he will never touch them…

lady or bitch?

If you are gentleman to me, you will see the lady in me. If you are a jerk to me, you will see the bitch in me.

Once an old man was waiting for a train, sitting on a bench.

a young boy came to him and asked the time.

old man refused to tell the time.

boy insisted again & again but old man denied again & again.

boy asked the reason?

old man said if i tell you the time,

then you will ask about me, my name, job etc.

then i will ask about you, both of us will be frank.

by chance you may get the seat with me.

then you may get down at my station.

my daughter will come to receive me.

she will meet you. She is beautiful.

you may fall in love with her, she too.

then she may insist to marry u, even may threaten me.

and i am sorry that

I don't want such a poor son in law

who don't have his own watch to see the time.

you said what exactly he used to tell me.

I'm not rejecting you, I am just protecting my heart!

scared to get hurt again.

i'd never succeed in my first LOVE!

because i'm lack of certain qualities.

But.....

after achieving those qualities,

i'd NEVER LOVE AGAIN!

hearts myself.

I don't think myself as a special person, perhaps I would categorize as limited edition. ♥

my tears...

Have you ever thought that tears are more precious than Smiles ?

You may smile for anyone,

but you would not cry for any one unless that person really touched your heart....

those days

A Kid On His Way 2 Home With His Mom Saw A Couple Kissing On The Road,

He Suddenly Shouted & Said: Look Mom look, that boy and girl Are Fighting For A Chewing GUM.

"i"

Birdy birdy in the sky

Dropped a poopy in my eyes,

I do not worry I do not cry

I am just happy that cows don't fly!

words from my heart, nana.

who will do it?

I push people away when all I really want is for someone to hug me & tell me it’s gonna be okay.

why issit so hard?

Erase from Facebook: Done ✔ Erase from Msn: Done ✔ Erase from cell phone: Done ✔ Erase from the HEART: Error ✖

everyone do too.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

it's true

I once cried because of a guy but I found out later that he's not worth it.

don't look back.

My past is my past, it made me who I am, I have no regrets, wouldn't change a thing. I just don't live there anymore.

the difference

I still can't tell if this is killing me or if it's making me stronger

don't know what to do.

The worst feeling in the world is when i know i'm losing someone and there's nothing that i can do to prevent being replaced.

this is me.

I am me. I am not willing to change for you, or anyone else. Take me as I am, or watch me as I go.

every girl does that.

He ignores me, but i like him. He does nothing, but i fall for him, i miss him, even though i know he’s never thought about me.

that's the way i am.

I like to pretend that i'm okay because I don't wanna annoy people with my problems.

.............

hello people. as you can see now its 12a.m. today i had a terrible day. was my first day of period and... i don't what to say and i'm somehow lost.. it was like so horrible.. today i had back this feeling of like past few years.. is like a bunch of kids insulting me when i was age 7 or 8? like saying i have no fathers and laughing.. but today one was different from that time.. this time one is saying i'm a bitch? a sluts or something? they even bought my father out to talk... i have no idea where this bunch of people come from.. but it was horrible.. i tried to get out but just couldn't then i change my mind that now i'm grown up. i can fight. it was fine at first.. then slowly i couldn't take it.. i mean like why do this people so free come and find problem with me with their unknown character? deng. i seriously no mood.. no mood till i can't even sleep. today is the suckish day ever.

don't worry, be happy :)

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own

SMILE ALWAYS

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. I always keep in mind that don’t cry because its over, smile because it happened.

STAY STRONG!

Challenges come so we can grow and be prepared for things we are not equipped to handle now. When we face our challenges with faith, prepared to learn, willing to make changes, and if necessary, to let go, we are demanding our power be turned on.

never give up :)

If i'm going through hell, keep going.

Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it.

Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it.

Hatred darkens life; love illumines it.

few years ago feelings

yu should know i din't wanted to lie to you,
AND yu should know im always being very honest to you.
and we should know we din't wanted this to happen.
neither one of us wanted this to happen.
neither starting or ending.
but yu did the right things.
its better to end faster than later.
it will hurts more if end it later.
and i SHOULD know i shouldn't take this love seriously.
and i should forget every single things we did or said!
and i shouldn't be sad because yu're not!
im so so so sorry.
yu know i scared to get comfort from anyone..
i feel even worse when people comfort me!
from the start i already know yu love her.
only her never will be me...!
i felt so dumb loving you or EVEN FALLING FOR YOU!!!!
i know its a dream.. and i know im ugly..!!
i know and know and know...!
i told myself everytime DO NOT love you or even fall for yu!
because ALL THIS WILL WAKE UP SOONER!
but the way yu treated me was too good!
TOO GOOD until i can't control myself from falling inlove with youhh.
couldn't believe how stupid i am!
im sorry..! very sorry..! super sorry..!
sorry for lying to you..
sorry for not being honest to you!
actually im not even happy at all..
i cried when i saw the msg.
i cried the whole night.
when yu say goodnight to me
and yu msg me again.
i type the 3words.
and later on i delete everything and retype.
cause we're friends! not more then a frens anymore
even today i cry few times
early morning i woke up and cry.
i don't know how to face you at school
when i reach school i saw yu walking from 711,
then i faster walk away..
in class i can't control myself from crying.
after school even worse!
i keep on laughing and smiling,
actually i feel like crying!
i force myselft smile and smile!!
i seriously feel like a piece of shit!
i dont know why am i crying over little things
im so sorry..! yu know i really felt sorry!
i know yu won't forgive.
i know yu hate people not being honest to you.
but i gotta do it...

maybe love really NOT blind!
ugly girls like me will never ever get what i wanted.
pretty girls always get want they want no matter what.
i'm sorry.
yu should know i really dint wanted to lie to you!

11/11/11

hello people! it's 11/11/11. well, this is a picture of me while waiting my sister to patch her MapleSea patch. then can pull out the modem. so, while i was waiting. i played with the WebCam and snap some photos of myself. its fugly -.- OKAY, byeee

JOEL SENG EE KIAT =P

Nightmare, YOU'RE NOT WELCOME! please do not visits me at all. because of you i couldn't sleep well. And, because of you my panda eye is getting worse -.- hoping my period come as soon as possible before my trip =( recently, my face somehow not in the mood & pimples pops out non stop! EW, recently i'm frigging broke.. so, i jail myself at home & play KinoSea.
lastly, thanks to the most ben dan joel seng ee kiat who give me dragon purple sleve.
aiyaa, he very kanasai -.-

FAIL

hello people! :) today i went and renew my passport. my mom and i was waiting for hours. then, they told us that their computers break down. i was like WTF =/ go home with disappointment. unfortunately my mom will drag till when she's free. gosh! EW, bye

argh

hello people, my mood isn't that good. i had this strange dream recently that makes me cry in the mid night. which is really not a good thing. pimple popping out non-stop. is it pimple season? LOL

okay, bye. I've nothing else to share.

R.I.P

R.I.P xuan's mother. There really isn't anything i can say.. i just wish i could give you a hug and let you know i'm there & i'd be praying for you. But you stay sort of far from me which is not at KL and all i can do is talk to you tru skype. I felt very sorry when I heard that your mom pass away. I've been thinking for so long what to say to you and it's been very hard to begin with it, but I said to myself that it is better to say something than nothing.

I know there is nothing that could ever replace the love of your mom, and I can't imagine how it must be hard to lose somebody so close as the mother. It is such a pity I've never got a chance to meet her. She must have been a brilliant lady to bring up the people like you.

I will always keep in my mind the image, which you described me, that one day i'll accept you as your girlfriend and we will get married and meet your mother- it's a beautiful image that will be with me forever.

God give you a consolation in your grief and power to continue your life giving a good example of her upbringing. So, stay strong. i don't know how you going to handle it so sudden which like your SPM is around the corner. i'll pray hard for you. NEVER GIVE UP!
smile always :)

speechless

hello people! :) i was so frigging pissed off few hours ago. anyways, manage to chill myself down. i din't meant to screw him up but somehow the shit he's saying behind my back is really damn irritating. GOSH, recently pimple start popping out and i'm going crazy LOL!

I really wonder is there anyone gonna love me for who I am? My attitude & Personality & LOOKS.

• Demanding
• Stubborn
• Talk rudely
• Walk like a gangster boy.
• Mood swing in 0.1111111.. seconds.
• BIG nose.
• Small eyes.
• Short lashes.
• Ugly big thick lips.
• Big thigh & calf.
• Antisocial.
• CRAP a lot.
• Annoying.
• Too lame.
• Pointless all the time.
• BAD tempered!
• can't make a decision.
• Procrastinator.
• EMO.
• Crazy.
• Idiotic.
• Lazy fuck.
• Ridiculous.
• Ignorant.
• Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring.
• Inactive.

I'm not trying to talk bad about myself. But these are the flaws I found in me. How can anyone possible love, a person like me?

ASDFGHJKL Cant help being random. Sometimes I think I love being sad. The emo mode. !@#$%^&*()!%^%&%*#$%)^$&*^#&@#

bye

我到底爱你爱到怎样了?

today my post going to be in chinese!
今天我会用华语来表达我的心情....其实也不大清楚自己要的是什么...我到底爱你爱到怎样了? 为什么觉得好像忘了你这个存在....?是不是因为有joel, chungsi, sweehow, jerald 和xuan 陪我的关系? 我总觉得你不是真真的爱我...我的感受谁会来理呢? 我这个人是很会吃醋...那也代表我爱你才会吃醋...或许我根本就不是你所要的人... 我也对这个世界很好奇... 我不懂得分谁好或谁坏... 我希望自己可以学得聪明一点... 一点就够了...! 讨厌自己那么笨! 好了! 我的华语有够烂!
Give up! LOL?　

ＮＩＧＨＴＳ　（：

FUCK YOU -.-

I hate this freaking stupid idiotic mother fucker son of the bitch.

Everytime when he tried chating with me he will ask me to be his gf and ask me whether miss him or not or etc etc etc and etc.

That's freaking annoying ok?!

I'm not those bitch who u cant be friends or talk to me or what so ever.

I am a normal human being so if u wanna be my real friend im always there for you.

But why?!!!!!!

WHY ALWAYS ASK ME TO BECOME YOUR GF??!

WHY THE FUCK YOU ASK ME I MISS YOU OR NOT SINCE WE ARE ACTUALLY NOT THAT CLOSED AT ALL?

I seriously hate you. I even feel like blaming your parents for giving birth to this kinda person to the world.

Couldn't you be a lil more normal?

Dont you know that there's a lot of your friend out there trying to tease you and laughing on your stupid-ness and desperation?

You din't know that huh?

You knew that right?

They pretended to be a girl and chatted with you and when u asked her to be your gf and they popped out and laughed at you. /;

Doesn't it seems obvious yet??

A little advice for you:

1. Don't be over desperate.

2. Even tho you are really desperate, don't make it TOO obvious.

Thank you, and fuck you.

You are such a shyt hole.

Even how good mood i was having its all ruined because of you, fuck

what answer should i give?

sigh, things happen and often we cant do anything but to just shrug it off our chest eventhou thats the last thing we want to do. petty things can actually become so out of control and it depresses me because i think im too that kind of person to keep everything in hand. but then yes, who are we to change people's perception and hope that they might think the same as you do. i do know the term about how being nice to a person that dislikes you is not considered fake, but grown up. its just sometimes the way they behave makes me wonder what did i do to deserve so. i always thought coming here would be for the better. apparently im kinda wrong.

i guess to be happy now is the only thing i find relevant to keep whats left of me alive. to think that there are people who still understands and still stick with me keeps me strong from all these nonsense that bind me so much to other's perspective and opinions.

this year is just not a really good year. i lost a friend and i think i am losing another one. great. its more than just discarding someone out from your life that simple. its so complicated and it comes with so much emotions. oh how i wish i could just make every single one of them sit down and talk it out. thou whats been going on lately just tells me that i should just, so called, leave everything to the hands of god. which totally doesnt apply on me as i dont really have a specific religion eventhou how much i believe god exist.

yes i know his always up there but sometimes, the storyline im plotted for is just too, rubbish.

i am lied to, faked to, but yet i'm always around because i believed that one day things might change. just like what a friend of mine say, change are constant, and most of the time we hoped its for the better. i guess im hoping too much. maybe shutting up is not the right thing to do. i don't know what to do, really, honestly.

also to know that how much of a stupid people could think i am just makes me wanna laugh and cry.

life is too much of a bitch.

I loved you like no other, but you took it for granted. Spoke of things forbidden, and you paid them no mind.

i was frigging bored yesterday. so, i was playing with my randomly picture. mood wasn't that good at first. thanks to joel who cheer me up tho he's a little mean. honestly, what answer you deserve from me? i couldn't sleep well cause of you. i treated you like gold then you treated me like shit. You're different...just like everyone else.. i hope i can made up my mind before 2nd.. :)

couldn't sleep well.

Morning? hahahah. why am i laughing? LOL! i couldn't sleep well last night. slightly fever, sore throat damn pain. i regret yelling, crying, drinking alcohol, eating snacks. i get nothing but sick. i was playing camwore with myself. anyhow, is just another day i need to move on. bye (:

this is so called piece of shit.

you always say i don't understand you. so, do you understand me? is you are the one that love me not enough. don't give me crappy excuses. i know what shit you talk and do behind my back. anyhow, congrats that i finally broke up with you. yeah, bye fucker. i'll get a better like.

spending my holiday like crap.. going cyber cafe desperately. having period yet still drinking cold water. he came my house over night for 2nights. we sleep & huge each other. i miss the old him. and i hate the current me cause i'm getting more greedy. reading back those post i used to up in my blog. sigh* i just fucking hates my attitude. i hate how i get jealous easily & pissed at him always over little things. i just want to be a better person and girl.friend.

Pissing me off

so fare i finally update my blog.

a lot of stuff happened. i din't know people was talking bad about me till i check out on facebook.
shaun lee, do you think i will scam her lens? are you brainless or what? watch your mouth, idiot!
another things is that i had this friend i used to loved so much that i always make food and talk to her but now we're nothing.. we argue and somehow she cried... i admit i was so mean that i scold her.. but i really don't want her to continue do wrong stuff.. i care for both of my friends.. but how!!
& another thing is my sister is so busy that she can't collect the lens so i have to just wait for her to get the lens back today. if not that humans though i scam people. those people must be fucking brainless-.- c'mon! common sense! will i so stupid scam my own school people when we have to face each other everyday..? fucktard shaun -.- i wanna rip his mouth apart! grrrs.. recently damn stress over everything.. OH STOP! today is joan birthday! hahaha x) pity her... her birthday still have to worry about her friend's problem xD alright.. i don't know who to talk to so i talking to my blog.. here come headache.. -.- sucks

last night.

I had a dream and it was about you...

I smiled and recalled the memories we had...

then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes...

you know why?

cause in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye...

take it easy man!

today, i wainted for my aunt auntil roughly 2.20pm!

this strange guy came to me and ask am i fine? he said i look sad.

LOL, honestly! i don't know him and then truthfully i really sad but i was smiling!

after that, johan went back then he came and talk to me.

he said i was faithfully but please have some limit on myself :)

its weird talking to someone i don't know but he's nice man!

COOL, seriously! i don't know i still look sad even i smile-.-

ARGH, so what's the point of me smiling when i don't look happy?! bullshit.

after recess, talk to brandon. serious shit!, i felt little better. just for while only.

he say those stuff really make sense. i never thought i will go ask him but..

he will tell everything truthfully :) so, finding him its a right choice! =)
after that strange guy went back.
i saw frankie! haha, talk to him.
his going tuition at 2.30!
he came out early from house to wait for mandyy! so sweet ><"

by the way, why don't just stop talking about it anymore.

TAKE IT EASY MAN! today i think 5person told me this. gosh...

sabrina, take it easy man. i still need to enjoy more stuff :)
alright, thats all for today! :)
BYE
smile always =')

i lost my pride..

I think it was me, it must have been me..

I guess I did something wrong

I tried too hard, wanted too much

I guess that's why he's gone

I lost my pride and I fall and cried

I felt like a little kid!

What's wrong with me? I still can't believe I did the things I did

I couldn't change him, he was gonna break my heart

I saw it coming and I knew it from the start

When you love someone like that

When you give what you can't take back

When you love someone with all your heart and soul

It's so hard to let it go..
that's all for today!
bye
smile always :)

hmmm.

HELLO, sorry late update! cause i was playing maple whole entire day!

tomorrow got exam! well, before recess i think i'm going to sleep! HAHA!

well, nothing much to say..

it's weird for me saying this but

i forgive him for the truth! i even forgive him for being him..

haihs, don't know.. maybe if we really not ngam to be together then won't be..

okay, i'm playing maple soon after update this!

bye!

smile always :)

prove it :)

WOW, never believe what i send! :)

actually, i can feel it. if my feeling are wrong than prove it.

he never care, never even care. no matter how lonely i am.

he still can leave me alone. you're right.

no matter i got exam or no i still will go school because i miss you.

but today, i would like to grats myself! :DD

i realise i can't force you to love me.

can't force you to be with me when you only got like 2/10 feelings on me.

i asked you, do you love me? you said yes.

i asked why? you answer cause i still got feelings. you just got feelings for me only..

because we couple for so long..

but can you accept if you loves someone so much that the person tell you that

both of your relationship was just a puppy love? will you be hurt?

sigh, at first i can't accept the fact that he told me that. dumb? HAHA, YES! :)

then now, if he really loves me he would ask me back.

lets see whats going to happen next :)

bye

smile always :)

is not as bad as i think :)

hey peeps!

actually is not that bad to forget someone.

I'M IN PROCESS TO FORGET SOMEONE..

i realise actually you don't have to act like as if he loves you..

if i miss him, i will tell my friend truthfully.

yesterday was playing maple

out of sudden i miss him..

so i was training with shu wei.. i told her i miss raymond..

isn't weird? LOL!

by the way, actually didn't really sms him is not as bad as i think.

i think the feeling for him is fading away..

his coldness towards me, I've used to it..

now i don't easily cry anymore because i learn to be stronger after each time i cry for him..

i think yeah! move on bah :)

last night i dream about you

In a dream, you appear

For a while, you were here

So I keep sleeping,

Just to keep you with me

I'll draw a map,

Connect all the dots

With all the memories that I got

What I'm missing,

I'll keep reliving
because i really can't forget you

people, i thought i would be really happy today..

basically, I'm wrong now..

he asked me to shut up. he said bye...

i will never forget..

i cry to death also he won't bother anymore..

i remember those day... we kissed, hug and sleep together..

everything is not like that anymore.. i can't stress to YOU HOW BLOODY SAD I AM!

he won't care.. won't give me the chance...

all he think that our love is puppy love..

where is our love?

Where does the love go?

I don't know

When it's all set and done

How could I be losing you forever,

After all the time we spent together

I don't know why I had to lose you

Now you've just become like everything I NEVER FIND AGAIN..

my wish

I can honestly say you've been on my mind

Since I woke up today

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

But I remember those simple things

I remember till I cry

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

Is the memory between you and I

another day to get over you

I don't know what to do

I don't know what to say

Cause none knows that he puts me through anyway

I'm awake in disaster

I can't seem to get past him

I try and I try but I can't get away..

i told myself i will get over you sooner!

Even if it takes forever

I'll get myself together

And people ask me how I'm doing?

But every question still has you in

I say I'm fine

And I never think about you

But you're always on my mind.

it was so hard to get you out.

tried to face the fact

you leave me alone and go home play your games

you told me the game is just too attractive to you!

you, you got a way of keeping me on your toes

I forgive you for your ways now that I finally got away..

thank you for the pain cause now i can deal with anything

thats what I've been living for, excuse me while I laugh my ass off!

love really hurts whether its right or wrong

before going to school.

you know.. its so ridiculous that I'm crying before i go school..

I'm so scared to face him.. when i know the truth..

how? can anyone help me.. guide me.. how do i face him...

why am i still crying when i dint sleep for the whole night and keep on cry..

after bath come out still cry.. gosh.. how?..

I'm so pain.. it's so pain.. after all these year I've not been crying like this..

119, come help me! anyone?... its so pain..

how do i face the fact...?

swing and swing

My mood swings are destroying me, constantly making me feel like shit all the time.

And what's so freaking awesome is that I am not doing anything to fight it off.

If you can fight off mood swings, that is.

Again, I have reached a dead-end.

Not knowing what to do to make things better.

I typed out a message on my phone. I was about to send it out to him, not giving a damn about what people would say or think about me. I was so fed-up, fed-up with myself and my never-ending excuses to avoid.. it. The feelings that overcame me that night are so very rare, as of late. I've just been so depressed lately, so snappy at everyone. I've been known as someone who hides their feelings perfectly. But no.. Not now.

If I sent out that message, I would regret it now. I just need more time. More time for myself to overcome my fucking mood-swings and to become a better person for you.

So anyway just a short post to let you people know that I will still be updating my blog so don't leave!

Actually I think the real reason why I stopped updating was because I had nothing emo to talk about anymore. Is that good? Or bad..

I've not been sleeping for whole entire night!
now have to get ready to go school.
bye.

i can't face the fact

i felt so pain.. this words keep on pops out from my mind.

' our love is just puppy love '

you told me our love was just puppy love...

after all this while.. now you tell me this..

what to do now?... can i pretend that you dint tell me..

why must you tell me.. why can't you lie to me.. why must you tell me this..

zach, martin, jade, jackie, cheehouw and shuan tell me that
if the guy really say this to their gf means.. the guy don't love her anymore.

i wish i don't know anything..

isn't weird? i'm couple-ing with a guy that don't love me.

i know you will never say break up because you don't wanna hurt me..

i know you trying to say things that giving sign that you don't love me anymore..

tell me what to do now? i'm so sad that feels like hell..

raymond chee, can i beg you for once? please don't leave me alone.

i'm so pain that tears just wanna falls out. i will try not to let it out..

i'm living in hells..

i know i shouldn't say this way because outside there maybe got people worst than me..

but, this really hurt deeply..

how?.... tell me HOW!!!!!!!!!!

please don't go.. i really needs you... i rely on you too much that i can't lose you..

please.. please! PLEASE!!!
it's 12.50 a.m. and i really can't falls asleep..

haihs

i know my lvl are just so low. forever can't reach to you.. no matter how hard i try.

you know? i remember the time you knee in front of me then beg me back..

you told me you will never hurt me.. you will love me.. you said you wont do things i don't like..

that's why the time i really believe what you said... i dint choose to be with bryan...

sigh, i really love you.. now you tell me.. is better if we break up cause you keep hurting me..

you told me our love is puppy love.. how can i accept all this words?

you are the first guy see my everything. the first guy i overnight with..

the first guy i ever kissed.. the first guy see me drunk crazily...

i can't stress to you how pain i am now.. i wish you would love me like last time..

you said you promise me and you will never break it because you're a man.

you made a man promise.. what about now? are you telling me you're not a man?

i beg you to call me.. and you dint wanted.. you felt that I'm annoying...

can anyone tell me what should i do? I'm living so happily with you.. I'm giving you everything and never think about what if we break up...

i never know this would hurt so much.. i never thought i will cry so much..

i never thought i will hurt myself because my heart was so pain that i can bang myself to the wall but its not as pain like my heart do..

i wish i could do something to change you.. why must all this happen again..

i don't love you just by your looks.. i really love you..

you are the first guy ever give me this feeling..

this feeling is so ridiculous.. i barely can survive without you..

RAYMOND CHEE , tell me what to do? I'm in pain but i think its worth.. because i really love you...

break up

nowadays also not happy.. you think i really loves breaking up with you?! why must you lie and lie to me again.. all i can do is cry.. you said you love me but how can you keep on hurting me.. all your friends think im the one got problem.. they don't even know all the bullshit you did to me.. ALL THE LIES you've said to me.. all those fake stories... nowadays im not happy at all... you don't even know... i don't know why.. whenever you do wrong something i sure say break up... last time i won't like that one.. i wish... i don't have all this problem.. i very headache... why must all this come to me?! i just want a peaceful relationship... haihs... you changed... you changed... you really did.. i don't know why im crying over you lah! not worth also!

GUESS HOW OLD AM I?

A man decides to have a face-lift for his birthday. He spends $5,000 and feels really good about the results. On his way home, he stops at a newsstand and buys a paper.

Before leaving, he says to the sales clerk, "I hope you don't mind me asking, but how old do you think I am?"

"About 35," was the reply.

"I'm actually 47," the man says, feeling really happy.

After that, he goes into McDonalds for lunch and asks the clerk the same question.

The reply is, "Oh, you look about 29".

"I am actually 47."

Later, while standing at a bus stop, he asks an old woman the same question.

She replies, "I am 85 years old, and my eyesight is going. But when I was young, there was a sure way of telling a man's age. If I put my hand down your pants and play with your balls for 10 minutes, I will be able to tell you your exact age."

As there was no one around, the man thinks, What the hell and lets her slip her hand down his pants.

Ten minutes later, the old lady says, "Okay, it's done. You are 47."

Stunned, the man says, "That was brilliant. How did you do that?"

The old lady replies, "I was behind you at McDonalds."

I'M NOT HAPPY.

5 and half hours more going to be my birthday, but i can tell that I'm not happy at all.
This is not the party i want at all. MOM planned everything and makes me feel that she ruining everything. I JUST NOT HAPPY AT ALL! i don't know weather you understand my feeling a not. But i can truly tell you that I'm not happy. trying to make myself stay happy i went to YouTube to search some funny video and watch. wishing i can really enjoy myself in my birthday party. But mom say this cannot do and that and WHAT SO EVER! i hate it when she arrange stuff for me. I HATE IT. I RATHER HAVING PARTY AT BUBBLE TEA ALSO NOT AT MY HOUSE! haihs.

bird and bees

A mother is in the kitchen making dinner for her family when her daughter walks in.

“Mother, where do babies come from?”

The mother thinks for a few seconds and says, “Well dear, Mommy and Daddy fall in love and get married. One night they go into their bedroom, they kiss and hug and have sex.”

The daughter looks puzzled so the mother continues, “That means the daddy puts his penis in the mommy’s vagina. That’s how you get a baby, honey.” The child seems to comprehend.

“Oh, I see, but the other night when I came into your room you had daddy’s penis in your mouth. What do you get when you do that?”

“Jewelry, my dear. Jewelry.”

Birthday Present

A young man wished to purchase a gift for his new sweetheart's birthday, and as they had not been dating very long, after careful consideration he decided a pair of gloves would strike the right note - romantic, but not too personal.

Accompanied by his sweetheart's younger sister, he bought a pair of white gloves; the younger sister purchased a pair of panties for herself.

During the wrapping, the clerk mixed up the items and the sister got the gloves and the sweetheart got the panties.

Without checking the contents first, he sealed his package and mailed it to his sweetheart along with this note:

Darling,

I chose these because I noticed that you are not in the habit of wearing any when we go out in the evening.

If it had not been for your sister, I would have chosen the long ones with buttons, but she wears short ones that are easy to remove.

These are a delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart.

I wish I were there to put them on you for the first time, as no doubt other hands will come in contact with them before I have a chance to see you again.

When you take them off, remember to blow in them before putting them away as they will naturally be a little damp from wearing.

Just think how many times I will kiss them during the coming year. I hope you will wear them for me on Friday night.

All my love,
LOH JADE LING

P.S. The latest style is to wear them folded down with a little fur showing.