Tuesday, July 24, 2012

If I'm in the middle


I’ve been quiet because of being crazy busy with some things I can talk about, and some I can’t. We have something going on that has taken a fair amount of my mental capacity lately, and I can’t write about it, not right now. It’s fine – I’m okay.

 My entire life has been spent as a pessimist. In everything I’ve done or said, in every competition or option, in every element where hope was a possibility, I erred to the negative. Not because I prefer being a grouch but because damage limitation was easier for me if I didn’t have very far to fall. Aim high, expect low, and then when the inevitable failure happened it didn’t hurt as badly.


Cynical and depressing, but it made for a few joyous successes.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Typical Mind

I think a lot about things, as you know that I can’t do anything in halves, I have to sit and think about them in multiples of five. What I'm sharing here is representative of my life, but it can’t be my life. It can’t be everything, I did that before and crossed boundaries I should not have crossed. I write the reality, the truth, what happens to me and what I think, feel and do. But I can’t capture every single detail, because that’s known as “obsessive”. It can also be classified as “boring”. Life gets that way.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Perplexed


A second opinion may not be exactly what I'm looking for. What for me is flawless and sublime might be unremarkable to those whose opinions matter to me. They might find the object of  my opinions quaint, lackluster, or, worst of all, not worth commenting upon. These things can be borne somewhat when the knowledge is mine alone. This is why I must carefully consider with whom I'm going to share my likes and my dislikes. Or anything, really. Take a good, long look before speaking.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Cam whore


Listening ; Happy ending - Mika


Having bloody mood swing out of no where. I was starving for MacDonald & Pizza Hut the whole entire afternoon. & I was lucky enough that someone is willing to deliver it to my house, thanks to Raymond & Ah Yeang for the MacDonald. So, recently I feel that I got so damn bloody choosy over my meals which like I rather starve than eating the food that people bought / mom cook. I'm such a bad girl. -bitchslap-






So, I was so frigging bored that I makeup & start to cam whore with my Digital camera, lame shit. I think my bestfriend was suppose to do his JAVA but due to my stubbornness, he need to help me to edit my damn picture, not the one on top of this post. IT'S THE BANNER RIGHT ON TOP. I think he had to bare with my expectation which is quite high, hah. He got sort of frustrated saying I was frigging 'mafan' which is troublesome, lol. Thanks anyways, hearts yo! ❤

Friday, July 20, 2012

Randomness




I was so bored that I switch on my desktop to see what can I do instead of making myself feel like a dead fish. I found this very very old picture while I was clicking here & there. I think this picture took it like half a year ago or more. I miss every single stuff that we had been tru although now we're going our own ways to get a better life because we know that this isn't working out anymore or should I say I'm the only one that think this way. It's not easy to end a two years plus relationship but when you know there's no point being together,  then you'll have to move on. At times, I really miss him badly but for now things changed.



A lot of people question me ; why do you act like it doesn't hurt?

Actually it does hurt, a lot. I don't know why but I think I knew this would happen someday ever since the day he left me. For me, a relationship won't last long if that couple broke up a few times or even once. It wasn't easy & it wasn't that hard. ACT is just another common routine for me in school life. Honestly, I'm sad doesn't mean I have to let everyone know by showing my bloody shit sad face right? I think smiling looks better than the bloody sad face. FACTS : smiling doesn't mean I'm happy. It often means I'm hurt, acting happy to pretend that I'm okay. Furthermore, I don't think it's a good news to spread around cause you know one by one pass around & people add few words in & stories change & also cause I really hate rumour. So, I think smiling will do.

That's all for today, bye. :)


smile always.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

One month m(-.-m)


Hello stalker, I'm still frigging awake at this hour -zombielook- Everything seems pretty fine today since I've been enjoying my day at Singapore. The most memorable month day I guess. Today went and shop for jade's fav.shoes at Zara but it seems there's nothing nice except for the T-shirt. I might buy it before I leave Singapore tomorrow, hopefully there's enough time for me hahah. Thanks to somebody that bought me sticky prepared the whole trip in order to get rid of the boredom :p But seriously, my bloody leg hurts like nobody else because I spend most of my energy walking around like boss t(-.-t)

 I think that's all for today, bye.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Sexy belly.

Yo peeps. Trials is around the corner yet I still can relax myself not studying at all as if SPM it's not important to me anymore, WHATTHEFUCK. Recently I've got a belly piercing & a lot of people had been asking me is it pain or how does it feels like or some even asked me is it costly? Basically, the pain it's worth more than the price, RM75. So, how does it feels like? I got quite dizzy at first & whole body was trembling but after 5 mins I was fine with it. I think that's all I want to blog about since this question keep going round & round. byebye :p