GOODBYE=)

I guess..
if yu're done breaking my heart,
i should go...
As i stared in your eyes, yu asked me why i was about to cry,
cause i knew yu're going to say goodbye..
Why can't yu see how much yu hurt me this time?
yu used to say yu were sorry, now yu don't
You dont even care anymore..
I'll never going to let yu see through me..
I'll never going to show you how broken i am inside..
My friends tell me to let go, or atleast to try,
but what do i do when i start to cry?
My head rest on my pillow, i let the tears flow and ask myself,
WHY CAN'T I LET GO...?
I know i have to said goodbye so many times before,
but all roads lead me back to yu..

BUT now,
as i say this GOODBYE, i have this feeling that i will never go back again..
Honestly,
i don't wanna cross y0ur path in the future,
cause i don't want all these feelings to come back and hurt me once again.
I know i cant let go of my feelings...
BUT, i have to let yu go..!
SORRY!, if it took me this long to let yu go..
i still love you, and i probably will love yu for a very long time...
BUT somehow i know,
i have to move on and get over yu..
AND the only way for me to do that, is to be not around yu anymore..

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There was a boy
There was a girl
Who were both too shy to say
How much they loved eachother
He always the gamers one..
She was always the cryer..
But neither of them cared
They saw eachother at school that day [`22/7/09-wednesday`]
But not one could admit their feelings
The girl waited on msn all night..
She was just About to sign out when..
His name came up.. It gave her butterflies!
And then he suddenly spoke to her..
"if i say i wan cpl with u
wht u wan to say"
The girl couldn't believe what she was reading..!
She replied "seriously or jokinng dee?"
The boy say "serious"
From That day on..
Both of them were in a dream world,
until the boy said to her friends
"THE TRUTH IS I DONT LOVE HER" [3/8/09-monday]
The girl dint know he said that..
Her friends din't wanted to tell the girl cause they know she gonna cry..
So one day her close friends suddenly angry and said
"yu think he love yu? HE DONT EVEN LOVE YOU!"
The girl kept silents and though her friends angry simply say things..
and she find it so weird.. so when recess time the girl find another friends..
she keep begging her friends to say...
so the boy had said on monday and the girl din't know anything about it...
[5/8/09-wednesday] only the girl knows about it..
So, they break up and couple back has 3times..
and the boy said to the girl wait for him until christmas..
until [30/9/09-tuesday]
morning 12am+ he said to that girl
"after read that
tHis will be forever good bye"
he had wrote on his blog..
"he won't wait until christmas..
even the girl love himso much, he promise he will never love back..."
Tears rolled down the girls face as she read his blog..
The girl din't understand..
she thought they would wait till christmas..
BUT she was wrong!
The girl tried to talk to him...
The girl call him and he put down the call..
The girl cry for 3hours and still wants him back..
But she put smile on her face and acted normal infront of her mum..
And now she decided not to tell her friends what she handle and she gonna act infront of her friends..
-THE END-

LOL? weirdo~

went tuition ytd at 8pm+ early xD
saw jude~ and he start to ask me how to say joshua name? say again and again~
i keep on say josua~ no the H!!!=="
then for while saw joshua coming lerr~ they talk abt some girls which i dunno who xD
they like her? SHE? LOL!!
then joshua teman to 711 buy things~
then i folo him to go MCM~
went tuition saw jowie xD!! and saw my darling~ muacks!
then for while teacher come in then start math classTT
then teacher call shuan lee out~
for while shuan lee come i call me go out!
i was like *why me? with my gan jiong face><*
then~ xiang yang mum out there!
ask ask ask~ i so scaredT_T
then call nick he dint pick up the phoneTT
call korkor fr help~
then still cant~
nvm~ I CALL BRYANCKH! got the address and allT_T
then went back class and xiang yang mum wanted me and shuan lee go along with her to find nick house~
then teacher dont let XD
went back class sms raymond lol!
he at my tuition but we dint talk use sms=="
then joshua throw small paper to me and the paper write "can give yr number please=)"
so zadao-.- reply my number and call my darling give joshua xD
then joshua start sms me! MY GOD! shiok~
is god now testing me?
day be4 ytd is kwok tung then ytd is joshua~==!
i tell josh is i dont wanna be a bitch~ i edi like ***** alots and i know he dont care xD
and i say he leng i not suitable for him xD he can get a better one xD
and im ugly=)
and lol... i keep say he joking.. lol
i know he serious de.. but act stupid=)
finish tuition at 10pm+
so told him i'll give him the answer on today~
and i ask raymond~ raymond say ask li may == is he a nice person and all~
then i tell raymond~ i better call ***** to see what is his answer!
if he say dunno then i'll accept xD
then back home i call him><
then i say got important things~ he say say lorr!
then he give no! LOL!! i tot he gonna say dunno...
so ltr on nick call me~
ask nick xD he say better dont-.-
and i ask him do yu think i'll accept HIM? nick say yes-.-
CAUSE NOT LAAA-.-
i love love *****!!
so wont cpl with anyone!
maybe one day i'll change my mind! dont know when..
then ltr on... nick mum call then close phone~!
then ltr on he call me again xD
talk for damn damn damn long!! siao him xD
he say after this call my phone gonna be with my parents~
lol, i say then byebye xD then he say nvm lah continue talk only!
then i keep say jovin so xin fu~
yu both so xin fu~ LOL
if xin yu here arr.. she gonna CHOP me off xD
lalalalaa die!=X
so on this morning wake up and joshua sms me~
and dunno what li may stuff la~~




and he keep on say sowwie-.-
LOL LOL LOL
swt kan?=="
so tell him every single things~ and forget to sms nick say no need help me lerr!!
SHIT!
*sms him now*
donnie!
so HULALA~~
BULLSHIT things happen to me~
i just want him to know i love him alots~
wan him to know he is special to me=)
wan him to know i need him alots when i no mood!
i wanna wanna wanna talk to himT_T
but he dunwan talk to meT_T
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sick and die =)

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smile always=)
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so is BULLSHIT

WHITE?

lol lol lol?
few days wearing white=="
start to miss him again and again`
when i miss him then call him^^
haihxT_T
make a deal x)
he will nvr lie to me orhx!
if he did? haihx` "wu hua ke shou"
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want him?
cant get`
miss him?
nvr miss me back`
LOL LOL LOL?

BULL SHIT!!!
buh bye~

-HAPPY?-

lol, went sunway ytd.
so watch G-Force for 2nd time~
was kindda fun x)
sit btw nick and bryan~
the whole middle roll let us take liao x)
so its 13 ppl xD
after all play ball ball xD
then back home~
fucking mum blablabla~~
make my room look even worst!
FUCK HER!!!
so take bath and sleep~~
and while edi sleeping~
so, around 1am he call me xD
then talk for 27mins then off and buh bye xD
so LOL.. kindda weird i wear like that to sunway?
comment from ppl
Ryan : where are yu going? to wedding? *laughing*
Jade : leng?
NOelle : leng?
Li ying : leng?
Raymond : princess? =="
Jason : *Shiok seing me wearing like that? WAHSEH*
BRYAN : secrets xD
my comments for myself!
LOL LOL LOL~~
im ugly as porkchop=) and i dress macam sohpoh xD
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You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they

But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do!!

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

-yu're unlucky-

LOL
jian hui everytime call me when my phone not with me x)
NYAHAHAHAHA xP
so lots miss calls~!
sorry lerr x]
yu're unlucky xD
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WORLD, burn me up
just allow me this one thing
everyone curses my love
i'll love this just once
i love you, i love you
would you please turn y0ur head toward me?

-STOP-

hello=)
im bored=(
"don't skate like a hero and end up in a hospital more like a hero-.- "
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will forget everything
the very last words to myself
ERASE all the loving memories!
for how long i need to be hurt
how long do i have to cry?
how long until the tears STOP flowing?
these tears already dry and dry!
is my heart bleeding..

GET A BETTER LIFE=)

decided to go genting tmr with cousin^^
since i not happy this few weeks xD
let me go out play shuang shuang^^
so ltr going out makan then staight stay with my cousin^^
then tmr morning going genting x)
tuesday go genting xD
thursday go sunway xD
anything call/sms me xD
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smile always=)

FORGET ABOUT HIM!!!

thought yu try to force love
love, why cant i let yu go?
can't i live forgetting you?
i don't think i can live without yu..

-LOL!-

going sunway on thursday~
going ice skating!=D
A MUST!!
my aunty will watch us go in only she leaveT__T
so i cannot SHOPPING!!!!
must take care of my lil cousin..
she so cute!!
so friday cant join my friends they all~T...T *cannot see him*
friday got wedding~~~ so everyone will be busy, mum wont let me goT.T
SO I WANNA CRY!!! miss him badlyT_T
waitting for christmas~

-GOOD NIGHT-

hello (:
and buh bye x)
gonna sleep soon but dunno what time!=D
tmr 11am only on9 xD
so wait ya xD
wonder what is the suprise he wanted to give me?
keep on wonder wonder wonder~
and atlast he say nothing-.-
LOLS!!!!!!!!=.=''
this week he choose wednesday to call me x)
one week once he only can call me T_T
[wish my korkor faii faii find a gf xD]
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give up on him barhsx

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went tuition this morning-.-
LOTS ppl-.-
siao siao@@
i was kindda fan?@@
dunno what happen to me~~
keep on do wrong thing, write wrong words-.-
too sad? maybe~
khai syuen bought new lee hom dics~~ she so happy~~~
i was kindda just smile=) fake~ really FAKE -,-
anyways, trying to move on~~
even i still **** him~
just learn to move on x)
since he edi dont **** me cos i lied to him~~~
YUHOOO~~~ sabrina is so stupid!!!! im babi dipotong~ *my korkor teach me this x)*
byebye~~
I WANNA WANNA WANNA CRY CRY CRY CRY!!!! ):

VERY SAD & SAYING BYE TO MY LIFE

very sleeepy x)
but cant sleep-.-
and wish today he call me-.-
IT WONT HAPPEN-.-
cos he edi dont like me...
today recess i seriously very very happy!!
and last night was very very happy!!
u noe~ i sleep until so happy and sweet!
but today...
GONNA SAY BYE TO MY LIFE!!
WANNA DIE!!!!! =X

CAN'T EVEN FORGIVE MYSELF FOR LYING TO HIM!!!

not forgiving myself for doing something really FUCKING NO BRAIN thing!!

yu can hate me,
yu can dont like me,
yu can dont forgive me
because
i dont even wanna forgive myself ):

i should be happy be with him today when recess time x)
after all is -END- by NOW!

after school saw fazhu & joan~
then we walk~
rain? WEEHOO~~~
kindda fun x)
me and joan run run run in the rain~
crying and crying~ after all my mum call and !#%@^#!^&*()_+
then was in the rain and runing~~ i open whide my hand was like *WEHOOOO*
then went back my hs with joan~ then i bath~call him and tell him everything~
cos i know is better to be honest with him~
ilovehim so needdy HONEST!!
so tell him every single things! that i lied to him!
and now i feel much more BETTER!!!!
i know he wont like me anymore!!! cos im such a liar!!!
AND BYEBYE~~~!!!
i'll learn to move on even i still love him so much!!!!T_T
need to use few month time to move on~~~
next year birthday sure sad sad de ):

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forget him!!
find a better one (:

JUST WANNA BE HAPPY=)

BACK FROM SCHOOL!!
going to dunno what hotel to makan-.-
SO after blogging get ready and buh bye~
being torture by xiang yang, nick, shue king and the white guy in 2T=(
went up floor cos nick wanna see his darling =X
then folo them x) walking walking~ xiang yang mess my hair!!!T_T
SO MESSY!!! MY GOSH!! saw jian xi and euwen down and they sitting there~
all sit except meT_T i standing~ they talk talk talk~ then suddenly all went back class~so me too~
teacher at my classT_T and i dint wanted to go in =X wan to walk here and there~
xiang yang pei me walk here and there cos he know i no moodT_T trying to fake smile but still emo~
SAW him with that girl... was kindda sad~ IM NOT JEALOUS!! just wanna cry out when i see them so close~
then trying to control my tears!! joan keep looked at me cos she know my tears gonna come out~~!!!
so she pull me back coe she know how hurts am i~
went back class!! sit on my table and look at my beg~ with the thinggy!! then tears coming out~~ haihx... im such a loser!!! told myself not to cry for him anymore!!!!!!! but still cry...
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yu know its love when
yu look into his eye
&& suddenly
yu cant remember your own name.

-Love is piece of shit!-

morning wake up at 8something~
jian hui call me~
he talk talk talk~
he so pissed off-.-
he just cant stand the way "he" play with my emotion~
foo say that be4 too!! didi become korkor jorhx^^
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I wish i could tell you,
Exactly how i feel,
How much yu mean to me,
How much i love yu..
*no one loves yu like i do*
but i am too afraid to tell yu,
because i dont want to be saying,
was it so wrong to love yu, that yu had to hurt me so bad?
i think i am falling so deep to yu and it scares me...

-yu love her like how i love you-

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OH KAYS, IM GONNA SHUT UP!
not gonna talk to him anymore!
gonna ignore him because he ignore me!
the one suppose to care me he dint!
but the one who not suppose to care me he did!!
he teman late at night when i have no mood at all~
he worried when im not saying a words~
he no mood cause im sad~
he dont want to sleep cause i dont want to-.-
but why cant my bf do that!
simple~
talk to him he say dont kacau-.-
FINE, seriously PISSED OFF!!!
do yu know how sad am i?!
yu dont even fucking understand how i feel now!
yu know im crying for yu late at night anot?!!!!
i talked to yu, yu treats me like a shit!
FUCK YOU!!!!!
i seriously dont know why i'll fall for this type of GUY!!!
why do i love him so much!
why do i ever can forget the one i love the most and love him ahh!!!
why ahh!!!
and yet he dont even care...
single now!
fine, im being stupid~
byebye..
*sigh cry cry cryT___T

-T____________T-

*sigh no mood
went sch with my no mood face.
cried when i dint see him..
then scared joan see me crying faster wipe away my tears~
foo was coming~~
so fai fai wipe~
trying to SMILE=D
ying,joan,nick,xiang yang,angel,nicole and one more guy in 2T...
they keep ask me what happen to me?!?!
me says :i say im okay wut?
ying says : why yr face like wanna cry?
me says: where got? i damn babi happy=) *fake smile to her=X*
then ciah hui and ying say im smile till so fake-.-
joan looked at me and say issit him?
i say NONONNONO!!!-.-
haihx...
went KH after moral class~
then i WANNA BALIK RUMAH!!
really cant stand it anymore!!
i seriously NO MOOD..
if i cry joan gonna chop me off-.-
so while KH i told teacher i wanna call my mum~
joan dont know xD
went and call and took my beg secretly XD
by now i think joan must be scolding me~~~
tmr is my date to die!!X.X
no mood to write liao~
BYEBYE!!

NO MOOD NO MOOD NO MOOD!!
3times means really NO MOOD!
well, i'll force to smile in sch!
if dont smile joan gonna chop me off=(

hello (:
went to his house x)
sit,talk and play=D
im kindda happy =D
not kindda is very super happy><

-99, forever❤-

im so so so sleepy =(
from ytd night 9pm something doing the love thiggy till this morning 11am something
all togethe got 99❤
went to his house and put down the box of ❤
some of the love got write down what i wish x)
钟嘉豪，你几时才会爱我好像我那么的爱你啊?!
你放下她了吗?!
你的心还在我这里吗?!
你到底真真的喜欢我吗?!
我有时真的很想放弃你,可是我会很伤心!!
我真的不能没有你!!
你可以不要爱她吗?!
我爱你，爱到真的真的很辛苦!!
99= 久久,永远, forever..

later on going to MCD meet melvin & chang yee =D
and, today i dint go school cos he dint go=D
anyways need to get ready sin x)
byebye

can you tell me what to do?
his parents call me to advise him..
but but but..
he feel annoyed when i say those stuff..

2nd most happy day in this year x)

bought from sunway while finding foo they all x)
hang on my phone xD
oh my gosh!
i cant find the big box i wanted-.-
haihxT____T
my leg so pain after that =X
so far i couple, this is the only day im so so happy!!!=D
seriously very very happy lerr^^
nyahahahahahaha!!!!
and arr, today he so lengzaii x)
HAHAHAHAHAHA =X shhh!!
never regrets for falling inlove with him XP

he change my world, i love him<3

Used to being by myself,
but you change that habit.
Having you by my side,
the world is not lonely.
Standing up to my dream,
it's y0ur smile that encouraged me.


i miss him alots alots alots!!=D
ILY, BRYANCKH<3